It's been a while since my last entry. The day our son started making a full recovery I got sick. It's been a bad first two months as far as illness goes. I was stricken with a virus turned strep turned sinus infection that went to my lungs. Kicked my butt. The hardest part about being sick is not being able to train. Training is what makes me me. It's what completes me, balances me, releases me. I always become depressed when I can't train. I need that release of endorphins, that pump and tightness after hitting weights hard, that worn the hell out but I feel great feeling after a run. Those feelings are like a high for me and let me just say the fact that I am able to get up this morning and do a low level cardio session like riding the bike literally made me jump out of bed with excitement a minute before the alarm went off!
I can hear my girlfriend's voice in my head. She's reading this and is thinking, "There she goes again.". Yes Kat, you are right. Pacing myself is my biggest struggle. I get so fired up that I get in this zone of I HAVE TO. Well we see where that repeatedly gets me so yes I will come back from this by pacing myself. :)
I'm not sure how to pace myself but I will give it a go. I'll try to focus more on clean eating and building my immune system up. Not training everyday is going to be hard since I haven't trained since I don't know when.
I did get on the bike yesterday. I went very easy and very long. I read a book, I played the PS3 with my son and of course gawked at food on foodgawker. I did 32 miles. It was like a recovery session. A recovery from being sick. I didn't have very much resistance. I just pedalled and it felt great.
I'm back on the bike this morning for another steady session. I will be honest when I say I'm having a hard time just thinking about staying out of the gym today.